Some stuff going on

I'm trying out this "blogger in beta" thing. Canät really see the difference, but I guess it's out there somewhere, just out of reach. Doesn't really matter to me... Can an yone tell me exactly what I've signed up for? 'Cause I can't seem to find out.

this weekend it was the winter conference, in some forest 40km outside of Jönköping. It was lovely! I mean, the lectures was good even though I new most of it already, and it was really fun to meet all of these people again. Me and nefretel had that relationship talk that I guess has to come somewhere up the road for evveryone, and decided to define ourselves as partners. I love it, I really do! I mean, it's a little bit scary not to be single again, a little bit all of a sudden, but I realy realy do like nefretel sooo much. I really think we can make this work. Yey!

Other things going on... I've bought comics for four hundred SEK. I'm nuts. But I need them for my school project, I'm going to read some classical hero comics and analyse them with a heteronormative and gender perspective. It'll really be a lot of fun, I think, even though it's a lot to do. A great lot to do. I'm behind with loads of stuff right now, so it felt good to choose something I really love to do, like reading comics. That way it'll probably be easier to get it done. I hope.

Other stuff... Well, if you speak swedish you could check out sydnytt and "Måndagsporträttet" (the monday portrait) about me. And watch the movie "Jesus Camp" (traier), it's the most scary thing I've ever seen.

I can't figure out anything more to write, so I'll stop here.

The Sexual HELL Test

HELL LEVEL 2
Raw score: 76%
You're just about as deep in sexual hellfire as a person can get. Virtually no urge, however demented, will go ungratified; practically no boundary will go uncrossed. You're probably proud of your adventurousness, and, honestly, you should be. Few people are confident enough to pursue pleasure on their own terms.

Your morals could sink a bit further, sure, but it's likely that you've got a pretty good idea of what you're into and what you would do...above all you're honest with yourself with what you want. If more people were honest with themselves, you'd have a lot more company down in the flames.

AVOID: the lost souls in sexual heaven and (above all) the denizens of sexual purgatory. You don't need any prudes or wishy-washers in your life.


Source: www.okcupid.com has the best, and most, tests ever :)

One late night

So, it's four o'clock and I'm not in bed yet. It's been one of those evenings that's actually not that special, but that you of some reason don't want to end. Right now I'm chatting with some guy from the dark northern part of this godforsaken country. He's very nice, and will probably be the first one to read this :)

Sgt Stinger is sleeping on our sofa, and the snoring is actually really cute. He woke up just as I wrote this, though, in need of an aspirin. he's supposed to get up for work tomorrow, as is Chris, and I can't stop wondering how they fit their lives together. Can't stop wondering how I do it.

Which I don't.

But anyway. Just wrote a new post at a swedish blog, "jag vill ha testo" ("I want testo") about something really nice. I've got the first appointment for my gender identity dissorder evaluation (anyone got a better word for that in english, please?) in just a few weeks, instead of february like they told me on the phone. Interesting. Scary, but interesting. I wonder if they will think I'm dissordered (=a man) or not.

I guess I should be going to bed. But what the fuck..

Are you with me?

How can these things happen? How can they be allowed to fucking happen!?!?!

I've just watched the movie "Bloody Sunday", about a civil rights demonstration in Northern Ireland. The british army decided to move in, blaming "gunmen" and "bombers". Result 13 dead, 14 injured. Many of them as young as seventeen.

Sometimes I get so tired of everything. Maybe it's time to give up. maybe man isn't good, maybe there will never be world peace, maybe there will always be kids getting killed by militaires.

Afterwards, the officers who made the desiscion to move in got decorated by the queen.

Maybe there will always be people getting rewards for killing innocents.

I don't know.
Will we ever know?

But there's one thing that I do know. I can't give up.

If I give up, I give away the victory to all those people who kill innocents. To all those people in the world that maybe aren't good after all.

Man aren't evil by nature. But nature can shape man into anything.

As long as people get killed I will fight. Not by killing, but by talking, by writing, by demonstrating and by letting my words spread.
As long as people get killed, there will always be people who give up.
But there will also, always, be those who keep fighting. Who doesn't give in, and who refuse to lower themselves to that same level.
Who doesn't think that more violence will solve the problem.

I only have one thing left to say today.

Who are you with?